...So many ways to die trying...

This is for Mickey...

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of YOU has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated (by your smile)

I am Vindicated (from my old life)
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring (That you'll have one day)
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

I am vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along (That you will be here for me)

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (With you forever)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (With you forever)

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

I just wanted you to know that you have made such a difference in my life. I'm always thinking about you. I miss you every second that you're not with me. I never want to go back to my old life. Nobody can pull me away from you. It's just not happening. Sorry....Hahah. I LOVE YOU BABY...and I ALWAYS will.

I got another note on my truck tonight. One from Victoria. I'll have to go see her at Arby's one day. And Jesse too. Hahah. It will be interesting.
I'm really getting tired of my parents. It's just not funny anymore. I hate it. I'm going to need a place to stay at the end of the month. I'm getting kicked out...it should be interesting as well. Luckily, I picked up another shift at Carmike for Friday and Saturday night. I won't get to see Mickey those nights, but, at least I'm working. Making money.

By the way, tomorrow is Mickey's first day of work. I'm so proud of her and happy for her. She finally got a job that's NOT watching horrible kids for long hours and crappy pay. I'm happy for her that she got a job.

I got a letter from Justin today. It made me feel really good to hear from him. He's doing well, and I'm glad he's alright.

He's part of the first platoon. The Maddawgs. Hoo-Ahh. That's my boy.

Anyway, that's all I have for now, I need to get some sleep because I'm getting up tomorrow and calling Carmen. And I'll probably drop by and leave Mickey a little note. Hahah. Yesss.....I can do that now. Hoo-Ahh.

Died trying,
The Rev.